Sad Heart Of Mine

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There's nothing but love, respect and admiration from my side for the dudes from Caspian and I think that has been clear for anyone around me for... quite some time. Time way before I started Stereofox.

I've written, reviewed and discussed enough about their music and yet, there's always something more to say. Whether it's because their music is changing/evolving or because the emotions and my inner feelings are in a state of a constant change - who knows. Regardless of that reason, I feel I should write whatever comes to my mind while listening to the first official track off their upcoming record Dust & Disquiet.

I was lucky enough to be one of the first people to listen to the full record (more about the experience itself here) and I have to say that for those of you who love post-rock or good music in general will have enough food for thought in the next couple of months. I won't go into sharing my memories of the nearly hour-long record, but there's one thing which really stuck to my mind - I was pretty drunk and we had a really long discussion with Philip and Jani about which tracks should be released first. I guess that's one of the toughest decisions when it comes to releasing a new record and at the end of the day one never knows whats best or not. Truth being told, the whole record will kick ass regardless of what goes first, second and third.

The only thing that matters is that "Sad Heart Of Mine" will touch your emotions. Not sure to what extend, but it definitely will.

I consider myself a lucky and happy person and despite the fact that I often think a lot of things in my life seem... just coming along and happen without much planning or expectations, just like everyone else I've experienced a great amount of sadness. And that's totally fine. Being sad is good. Being sad is often great. It may sound cheesy but I do believe it's the only way to understand happiness in its purest form.

I'll be honest - listening this right now makes me want to cry a tiny bit... but not because of sadness - just because there are so many emotion, feelings, fears, hopes building up underneath and they need to be expressed somehow.

To some it may seem stupid, but with these few lines I would like to say to my family that I really miss them. To all the great people I've met along the years that they are really awesome and to those bunch who are truly close to me - that I appreciate them. Writing may not be the best way to express this, but it's life and sometimes you have to go with what you feel right now. That is if any of the aforementioned reads this. If not, I bet there will be other opportunities to express this.

Caspian - you guys should be very proud of this. Your music made me write this. It evokes sincere emotions.

This post was written at 01:02AM on a Friday night. It made me realize that sometimes sadness is happiness and vice versa. If that makes sense to you?

edit1: Monday morning the guys uploaded the track on SC, so I pushed it a bit up on the Stereofox page

edit2: I sent the post to few good friends, one of them responded with:

"...there must be rain to see a rainbow, which means  I agree - sadness makes you feel alive. Sometimes I cry and crying makes me happy to see I feel about things and care."